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Tuesday, June 17th, 2008
8:44 pm	things i want to do 1. learn to kayack 2. eat lobster 3. find my soulmate 4.have my own puppy 5. go whale watching 6. see a ghost 7. go to ghettysburg 8. pay off my loans 9. graduate 10. lose 50 lbs 11.take a cake decorating class 12. milk a cow 13. have a weeping willow in my yard 14. see the appalachians in the fall 15.shave a sheep 16. go to paula deans restaurant 17. buy jill a gravestone 18. learn how to make jam/jellie 19. write a song 20. take mom and dad on a vacation 21. go to an orphanage and hold babies 22. donate my hair 23. watch puppies be born 24. go to europe 25. rent a beach house 26. visit the grand canyon 27.take a lamaze class when im pregnant 28. make a blanket 29. get married in the washington dc temple 30. take advanced color and styling classes 31. visit the house forrest gump was filmed 32. get a massage liscence 33. visit a beach where the water is clear to the bottom im not finished with my list, but this is all i have so far. my list will reach 100. (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 24th, 2008
7:23 pm	i came home thursday night and spent the night with my new room mate "miles". we established a few roomate rules. his included me not stealing his clothes, and making sure to never leave the bathroom toilet clogged. mine consisted of no eating in our room, and no music late at night when im trying to sleep. friday morning i went over to broks house because we were supposed to have breakfast together. what really ended up happening was that we broke up. and for good. he had been acting weird ever since valentines day and all week long on the phone i could tell something was wrong with him. i kept asking him what was wrong and he said he didnt know. so when i went to his house friday morning, i asked him if he was feeling more like himself. he said no. i asked him if he was worried about money, he said no. his dad loosing his job, no. he said he was worried about us. and all week long he was acting strange because all he could think about was how we should break up, but he didnt know what to say. he thinks we are too different, and that... we only thing we have going for us is that we are in love. i thought that was enough, but i guess its not. it would be nice to like the same music, and movies, ect. we have the same humor, for the most part. and i love that he makes me laugh. but... for our future i dont see it working out. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 18th, 2008
5:40 pm	job hunting continues.... these days have been spent going to bed early. it was a little strange and nice at the same time to be here in east lansing all weekend. i went to bed at 8:30 last night and tried to sleep in- only waking up at 7:30 and then not being able to go back to sleep. i showered, dressed, grabbed a banana and spent the rest of the day driving arounf filling out job applications. as far as im concerned... no luck. nobody wants to hire me with my hours that im at school. im not giving up yet thought. out of all of the jobs i applied, i hope i get the one at pet smart as a dog bather. i think i would really like this job especially since i do it all the time at home already. today i got lost a little, but liked it and when i kept going down the wrong road, i found a really beautiful big wide lake that i didnt know was there before. and there are a whole bunch of small cottagy and also large mansion type houses all along the edge. i drove completely around the entire lake looking at all of the houses, and im so glad that i found that because i never knew that was there. and the whole time i kept saying to myself, this place isnt that bad afterall. i hope i can go back down there around the spring time when things dont look so crappy outside. yesterday my weird but nice home teacher came over and taught me. the lesson was about feeding his sheep. i thought it was nice. i keep meeting alot of nice people at church, and i dont know why but the majority of my ward is made up of converts and i really like it. i have met three girls that are converts and they all have boyfriends that are not members and try to bring to church and i like talking to them because it makes me feel not so alone. i feel like people might really look down on my sometimes for having a boyfriend that isnt mormon, but i dont care. its just hard. and i wish he would be more interested. he is coming this sunday. and i also watched pride and prejudice yesterday. it was long but i liked it. i like those jane austin books. they are all very similar, and they always are tangled up love webs, but i still like them. holly does too and i cant wait till she comes home so she can watch them with me. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 8th, 2008
5:56 pm	my life is so much better. i havent felt sad in four days! even if i try... i cant. im only taking 10mg and it makes all the difference. instead of focusing on the bad, at the end of my day i say to myself, think about all the good things that happened to you today! ps. i sold 60$ in retail! i was so happy. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 4th, 2008
5:17 pm	better things have been better. i came home this weekend and saw a dr. so i could get some medicine. i hope it works. i want to feel better. things are better with brok. we are still on a " break" and technically allowed to see other people if want to, but neither of us do. i have a feeling this break wont really last much longer anyway. everything still feels the same between us. holly comes home in 17 days and i cant wait to see her. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 28th, 2008
4:00 pm	depression hurts. i havent written for a good three weeks. i havent been doing so well lately while i am away at school. this bad depression has been hanging over my head and i cant get rid of it. i think there was a good two weeks where i didnt really feel happy about anything. none of this helped at all with my relationship with brok, and it really put a strain on things, now resulting in a break for us. i dont like to be alone up there, and away from my friends and family. a girl at school even asked me what was wrong and told me that some girls were worried about me. i didnt know that my depression was that noticeable to other people at school. last week i started taking one st. johns wart in the mornings to help me. i think that it is working a little bit. but i am not looking forward to going back to east lansing today. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 2nd, 2008
8:58 pm	back to school dear journal i am back in east lansing. i woke up this morning to tons more snow. it took me three hours to drive hom last night, as i passed a car accident every five minutes it only reminded me to go even slower. i went 30 mph the whole way home. i cannot believe i had school today. i got into an accident on my way to school, i had to drive today costing me 8$ to park. as i was pulling out of my apartments, i slid into a wooden pole with reflector lights on it, and with it, taking off the molding on the right side of my car door. it is now in the back seat and my car looks white trash. how sad. i went grocery shopping and spent 40$ on groceries. this should last me about 2 1/2 weeks. i call my mom because i am proud of myself that i bought things on sale and when i tell my mom what i bought she tells me that it doesnt sound like that good of a deal. i never knew that toilet paper was 4$ and powder was 6$, tampons 5$. i hate this. today i got some job applications and i will fill them out and return them by the end of this week. this is my goal. cvs is hiring and so is a dry cleaner by my school. i need money ( now). today in school we talked alot about jobs after we graduate. she says that she knows some ladies that work in the salon in okemos that make 100,00$ dollars a year. she says that it is not necessarily that they give an amazing haircut, but that they keep their clientel and also keep them happy. i want to be this. i cant wait to work. on tuesday i move up to the clinic floor and start performing services. i am supposed to sell 4.25$ worth of retail to every client per day. i am scared. i dont want to seem pushy. but no one will want to hire me if i cant get people to buy stuff. so i need to. i wish my school didnt have a " no tipping policy" i miss my mom, and the poodles. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 29th, 2007
10:06 pm	going back in two days this break at home has been a nice one. i really missed my family and i think that im ready to go back. i have alot of stressful situations to deal with when i go back to east lansing. i have to live with new roomates, take my final which determines whether or not i pass my intro class ( anything below an 80% is considered academic probation.)start working with new teachers and cutting on the clinic floor, try to find a job, ect... i wish this break was longer and that it didnt go so fast. (Comment on this)
Monday, December 17th, 2007
11:07 am	ready to go home saturday! i am so ready to come home for christmas! i actually cant believe that it is almost that time. i feel like december just started. my two little christmas trees, nativity set, and gingerbread house all help to make it feel more like christmas time in my apartment, but nothing will compare to when i get to go home and be with my family, and see their REAL tree, drink hot chocolate and watch christmas movies with my brothers and sister, mom, dad, and all my PUPPIES!!!!!!! sometimes i miss them more than anything. one of my new roomates moved in a few days ago. she seems very normal unlike the other girl thats moving in next week. but this ones name is christine, and shes a cute little asian girl. and shes quiet. and the other day i knocked on her door and told her i was making cookies and i asked her if she wanted one, and she said yes, and she came out of her room and dried and put away my dishes while i washed, and we talked while we waited for the cookies to be done. this is what she is like: - she loves hockey -shes catholic -shes adopted and so is her younger sister -she likes to be alone - she loves 90's music -shes lactose intolerant -she used to attend aquinis -shes from flint she seems very sweet. and she already left yesterday for her break. she will be back january 3rd. today i made pizza sauce for the class pizza party i am having at my apartment on friday. i am making pizza and breadsticks and all the girls are bring a dessert, salad, or soda. i am excited. it will be a nice christmas, birthday, and end of the week party right before christmas break. mom and miles may come up on friday to do some christmas shopping, stay for the pizza party and stay the night, and then mom will be my haircut model on saturday. i really hope they come but if they dont thats ok. i just hope that i can find someone else to be my model for saturday. today i am paying bills ( hahaha its so weird saying that), cashing a check, tanning, going to barnes and noble, getting my bag ready for state boards tomorrow, finishing or at least working on procedure cards, maybe taking myself out for lunch, and doing some very last minute christmas shopping. did i alrady say that i cant wait to go home? (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 10th, 2007
4:08 pm	lately this weekend brok came to visit. we decorated gingerbread houses and watched home alone. it was fun. he came for my model day, and i gave him a mens haircut that came out really well. my teacher came up to me after he left that i did a really good job. i also got 100%! i have an earache and i dont know what to do. it hurts so bad and i dont have any medicine. i dont even know where there is a clinic around here. i keep trying to call my mom and ask her what i should do but i think our home phone is out of battery or something because i have been getting the busy signal since 8:30 this morning. i CANNOT wait to go home for break. i dont want to be here anymore. i like going to school, i love the girls in my class- i have made alot of friends, but i DONT like living on my own. i like the cooking part of it, and cleaning and stuff like that, but when i come home, im all by myself. these long, cold, dark at 5 pm days can be really lonely sometimes. except for last week, kathy made my day. i came home and there was a package that she sent for me- an early birthday present, and it made me so happy i just cried and cried. sometimes i feel like people even forget that im out here, and trying my best, and that im all alone. but this aunt has specifically made sure that i know that she has not forgotten about me, and that she loves me. i love you too kathy, and i hope you know how much. i hope you got my messages and calls. today i went grocery shopping and finished up the last of my christmas shopping. now i just have to wrap them all. i made apple coffee cake and cleaned the house. i bought all my things for the pizza party that im having at my house, with my class. i hope its fun. i also finish up the last of my project due tomorrow for school. i think that when i return from break i will get a job. there is a pizza place and dry cleaning place that are hiring front desk help. maybe i can apply there and start working when i come back. its been so nice not having to work and just to focus on my school work. two more weeks i will be on the clinic floor and providing services for people, and starting my own clientel. im excited and nervous. i just most of all cant wait to graduate in august. it will come so fast. ps. i have three roomates moving in. one comes on wednesday, and the one that i have already that i love is leaving. the new ones are weird. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 26th, 2007
5:07 pm	going back after being at home we had a really nice thanksgiving dinner here at home. i had school friday and saturday but, just took those two days off because there was no way i was driving all the way home and only staying thanksgiving day! thursday night i went with joanna and we drove diana to the train station together. saturday i went to kalamazoo with brok to see some bands play. it was ok. i went to my friend baby shower and made her baby a blanket. i got to see my greek family twice this weekend. i have two christmas trees to put in my apartment. im so excited! and brok's mom gave me a gingerbread house making kit. how cute. i have to go back either tonight or tommorrow morning at like 5. i havent decided yet. i am a morning person, and i dont really like driving at night. i really wish i never had to go back to be honest! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 19th, 2007
12:15 pm	thanksgiving is coming! yesterday i went to church. my third time going in my singles ward. i wish more people would talk to me, some are friendly while others are not. tonight they are having a thanksgiving dinner at the church and i am bringing mashed potatoes. i hope that i make some friends. this morning i am emailing holly, my boyfriend and miles. i went for a walk around the nature trails that go around my apartments. i have been wanting to go for a long time, but am scared of going alone. i decided that i cant just stay in my apartment all the time, so i went out this morning anyways. i joked with my mom about bringing a knife, and then she said," well what if they take your knife and try to stab you?" so... i didnt bring a knife. but i stayed in areas where it felt safe, and i asked heavenly father to keep me safe on my walk. it was fun! i went for a little over an hour. i saw horses and a rabbit. i love being outside with nature, even though its cold and gray out. i used to go on nature walks all the time at home, and i have a ton of trails by my house. im glad i got out. im going to tan today and then go home and clean up my room before the dinner tonight. saturday my roomate came into school for my long layered haircut. it came out great! i got a 99% and alot of compliments. this made me feel good. she has been in a weird mood though. she kept acting annoyed that she was there on a saturday getting her haircut instead of sleeping in. oh well. she is only there for a few more weeks and then she goes back home to canada, and i will have the apartment to myself. i wish holly and miles were home for thanksgiving this year. brok will be here with my family, the missionaries, and an older weird couple from my home ward. i hope it is nice. then i will go to brok's nana's house for dessert and games. possibly a movie that night. i will drive back friday morning because i have school at 9. i wish i had the whole weekend at home, but i dont. i love to come home. Things i am grateful for: - im going to beauty school... finally -my sister teaching people about the gospel and changing their lives for good -girls who have been kind to me since i have moved here -my mom -brok -puppies -aunty kathy's letter in the mail that came last week -loans -my phone plan -good budgeting skills i have learned from my mom -blankets -a car of my own to drive home in -email -the gospel -my roomate even though shes been acting weird -my family -my house at home with a fireplace in it -whats left of my friends -my free bus pass - and THANKSGIVING! - (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 8th, 2007
3:54 pm	dinner with girls from school school has been fine. have been doing three haircuts a day so it goes by quick! this weekend i am coming home for a suprise party for my friend ryan who leaves for iraq next week. i am sad for him, and i wish i didnt have to spend 40$ to come home, but i have to go to this party. he will be there for a year and if something bad happens to him i will feel very guilty. the other night three girls from class invited me over for dinner. they invited two other girls from class and we all brought a dish and ate dinner together. it was fun! and really nice not to eat all by myself. they even asked me to say grace. i thought it was really cute. before i left the girl who invited me hugged me and told me she loved me and was glad that i came so i could get out of the house for a couple hours. it made me feel really special to know that she cares about me already, and i havent known her for very long. and it felt really nice to be included. i was kind of scared to go in the first place because i thought that it might have turned into some drunken bash, but it didnt, and i was really glad for that. those girls are actually very sweet. they invited me to start working out with them on monday and i told them yes, so i am happy to have things to look forward to. today is shannons birthday! i cannot believe she is thirteen years old. i will give her a present when i come home on saturday. this morning it snowed and i am hoping that i dont wake up tomorrow with it all over the ground! i am not ready for it. but i love christmas and i cant wait to start listening to christmas music and decorating my apartment. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 5th, 2007
8:42 am	i love being home its so fun to be home! it feels weird at the same time. i like sleeping in my old bed. i came home and shannons junk was coming out of my drawers as i had predicted, but i guess its not really my " room" anymore. just things like nail polish, swimming goggles, old homework, ect. its fun to come home and to have a CHOICE about what i want to eat, and not just having to eat leftovers or just the stuff that's fresh because it will go bad soon. my dogs are so cute. this morning my door must have been open a crack because i heard a little clip clop noise, and looked down and poppy was standing upright by the side of my bed looking at me and wagging her little tail! i think she wanted to know if i was still home. as for pumpkin, she keeps climbing into my lap and licking my face. so cute. i miss the dogs so much in east lansing. today i am going out to lunch with my mom. i am giving her my christmas/birthday list, and i think i am going to visit broks' nana with him today. last night he took me to the movies and it wasnt very good. dont go see " across the universe" unless you are really into musicals i guess. andrea boceli is on tv singing " time to say good bye" right now. i love this song! i think hes singing it because he knows im going home today. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 3rd, 2007
6:38 pm	home for the weekend im so happy to be home this weekend! kids were drunk at 10 am this morning because of the home game at michigan state. no joke. it was probebly the most ridiculous thing i have ever seen. everyone looked like zombies walking around town drunk today. i am so GLAD i got out of there for the weekend. the neighbors above me woke me out of my sleep at 3 in the morning for a half hour last night. i almost went up there and knocked on the door, but i didnt. i just put the ear plugs in that brok brought me last weekend. my town is over flowing with alcoholics. all i ever hear about is drinking, and parties, and hows girls cant wait till they can leave school to go get drunk. its very annoying and makes me feel out of place. today a girl openly asked me in class if i was a virgin, and then i looked around me and the whole class was looking at me. i just kind of looked down and said," yeah" and everyone just looked at me in disbelief. it was awkard and i just felt sad that i was probebly the only girl in my whole class. its just hard being around people all the time who are not like me i guess. i mean alot of those girls are, but we dont share the same morals. and its hard. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 29th, 2007
11:45 am	weekend brok came to see me this weekend. it was so nice after not seeing him for two weeks! i missed him so much. my mom sent him with a box of things for me. food, beautiful jewelery, a pumpkin, and a letter from holly! it felt like christmas. brok said he was starting to forget what i look like. hahaha. yesterday he came to church with me, just for the first two hours, and then we went home and i made meatball grinders for dinner. abby joined us! i knew brok would like her because shes just quiet and all around sweet. i came home late last night and she had done all of my dishes because i made dinner. bless her heart! then after dinner we went downtown the barnes and noble, went the arcade ( for brok) and got ice cream at cold stone. we just walked around, i took him to my school, and showed him all the cool shops and things on grand river ave. then he took me to the movies and we saw dan in real life. it was really cute. and then he went home! aww i miss him so much already. it was such a fun weekend though. today im going into school to get a free haircut and to have my hair tinted. they needed a model for a class, so i volunteered since my roots are awful anyways. free haircut and tint! yay. im really liking these apartments, but they are WAY disorganized. you go to the office to ask them a question, and they will give you a different answer every time you go. first they told me i didnt owe novembers rent. and then i owed 90$, and now no one can tell me unless the leasing coordinator is here. come on people. they couldnt even find my leasing papers. ugh! going downtown for the day and then i will come home later tonight to study. this saturday i give my first real haircut!!!!!!!!!! yay (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, October 22nd, 2007
4:58 pm	long fun, tired day today was a fun day. just as i was about to leave to go to the movies by myself, miles' friend luke who goes to MSU called me and asked me if i wanted to meet him for lunch! i said sure, so i got on the next bus and went downtown towards the michigan state campus. i got a little lost on the way, and because i cant except calls during the day, we had to keep texting each other. i kept having to stop and ask people where the hall was that i was trying to get to, and the whole time i had been going the wrong way! i turned around and all the sudden i see luke standing there on the sidewalk trying to text me! hahaha. i shouted, " luke right here!" and he started running towards me. it was ridiculous. he took me out to lunch to the pandra express on campus. then he told me i was in for a fun-filled day of a full tour of MSU. hahaha. so i waited in the bookstore for 45 minutes while he went to class. then he showed me campus, or most of it at least ( its the biggest college campus in the country- at least i think thats what miles told me) he showed me his dorm, his mothers' care package she sent him, he showed me the international center and the beautiful botanical garderns. then we walked downtown, got a smoothie at bubble t, and browsed at barnes and noble. on the way back to the bus stop, i showed luke where i went to school and i took him inside and gave him a tour. i think he liked it, and he told me he was going to come in so i could give him a haircut. he is very sweet. he even waited for me to get on the bus so i was "ok" he said. hahah he is going to MSU to study elementary ed. awwww. yesterday i went to my singles ward. its kind of smaller than i thought, but still i nice size. there are two other services going on while we have sacrament meeting! so its full in there. i like that i dont have to go till one. at the end of relief society, this girl asked me if i wanted to come over for dinner. i said sure. so i went over there at 5:30. she made vegetarian lasagna and cookies. two other girls were there as well. they were really fun and sweet, and most importantly, normal. they invited me for family home evening tonight, so if i get my homework and studying done i will go. they have alot of fun activites going on : dances, a bake off, international night, a potluck next sunday, im kind of excited because now i can be with people and actually go out and do stuff with people. this weekend is halloween. alot of kids will be drunk, annoying, ect. brok is coming to visit me this weekend and will be bringing me ear plugs! yay. im so happy. i can finally have a goodnights' sleep. this weekend i think i might be doing something fun. at michigan state a paramornal investigator is coming to talk about his experiences, then the first fifty people that show up get to go with him on campus for an investigation! i hope i get to go. it said to bring tape recorders and stuff like that and i have one so i hope i can go! i wish brok was coming earlier so he could come because he loves stuff like this. now im tired and have to go study my brains out. at least i got my exercize for the day! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, October 19th, 2007
6:29 pm	in my new home it has been a rough week for me. when mom and i got here on monday, i was showing her my new room when i noticed things missing. my brand new towels from kathy, a necklace, someone had left a sweatshirt in there, the bed was messed up after i had made it the week before, ect. someone had been in my room! i was horrified. i was crying, and as i told you before i never wanted to move in there in the first place. mom told me not to make a big deal about it and that i would find another opening in an apartment, and i was upset. i didnt want those girls to see me move all my stuff out of there. but mom just asked me to trust her... so i did. we waited around about three hours and then finally i was in my new apartment. a four bedroom and only one other roomate! holly i know this was meant to be. my roomate is from canada. she is an intern at michigan state. she is quiet and sweet and she does my dishes for me when i am at school. i knew that i would like her when i read her profile because it said ' i would just like someone i can talk to when i come home at the end of the day" what a sweetheart. she also invited me to bible group the day i moved in. i politely said no, but thats how sweet she is. i just love heavenly father so much. if those girls wouldnt have stolen my stuff, and been in my room, i wouldnt have been with abby this past week. i know that i was supposed to be with abby because she was lonely. and so am i. beauty school is so much harder than i ever thought it would be. i always thought... beauty school cant be hard, besides im good at that stuff. well guess what... i wake up at six, go to school by 8:30, come home at five and then do homework till 11. every single night this past week that was what my life was like. its so hard. i have so much homework and i try so hard to study every night. i have already taken 6 tests this week, and tomorrow 2 exams. the worst grade i got was an 82 and the best a 96. it covers so much biology. skin, bacteria, infection, scabies, HIV, dandruff, all the parts of the hair structure... everything. the only fun part this week was trying out all of my aveda products and learning hand and arm massages. tomorrow we learn how to wash and style hair. in two weeks i will give my first haircut! i am so stressed, but so excited. all the kids drink here. last night when i finally got to bed at a decent hour, the apartment above my room decided to blast some music. the base was really loud, and then they all went outside drink and yelled, laughed, giggled, ect. it was very frustrating because i was so tired. there are so many stupid girls that just talk about how they havent been able to drink all week because of school. boo hoo. but i am trying to be friends with the sweet ones. i met a girl named sarah that goes to michigan state and it friends with my roomate, candace from japan, and a girl named meaghan that goes to school with me. i hope i find some more nice people to be friends with. miles' friend luke from home goes to michigan state and called me and i think we are going out for lunch monday. so that should be fun. its fun to live on my own and make my own food, do my own laundry. its not fun to study all day and night so when i cook and clean its fun for me, and a nice break from the hard stuff. i cant wait to go to church on sunday and see my singles ward. i miss my poodles. i miss them so much. mom put me on speaker phone last night and had me talk to them and she told me that they were cocking their heads, all confused like and that skipper put his paw on the phone. i wish i could have a dog here.. but i cant. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 14th, 2007
8:30 pm	leaving home. this is the last night in my house before i turn into an adult and live by myself. after this night, i will never really be able to " live" and i mean really live here. after i graduate i will probebly get my own place and support myself for the rest of my life! its scary to think about. tonight i am putting boxes in my car. everytime i bring a box out there i want to cry. im really going to miss my friends, and my dogs. and brok, my best friend. i keep thinking about the words to "leaving on a jet plane" i wish i was going home to nicer girls. ones that would hug me and be friendly. i really hope they dont ignore me, or are mean to me. i hope i like learning how to be a hairdresser. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
8:27 pm	packing, missing holly ( from friday) i have been given several boxes of things for the apartment from many different sisters at church. its to the point where i now have to sort through everything and just keep the things that are in the best condition. the rest i will leave at my moms, either for holly when she comes home and when she settles in her own place, or for my own place once i have graduated and have a job. i just cant take it all! as much as i would love too. we needed so much for the apartment, all the girls had was tupperware, and they told me that they werent " cooking girls." well i am a cooking girl, and i will be using everything that people have been giving me. today i collected my last two checks from work and found that i had enough extra money to buy a small cell phone and plan. i can now text for free, call my favorite number for free, and have free nights and weekends. this is all that i will need, and really all i can afford. i am so thankful that i could have a phone right before i move away because my phone was stolen out of my car about a month ago. i cried for nights just thinking, how will i talk to my mom? to brok? write letters by mail? haha. i was getting desperate. this weekend will be all packing. i have packed zero clothes. i will only be taking my nicest, cleanest, and most professional looking. the tee shirts and jeans i havent worn in a year can stay home. my mom gave me a ring when i turned 17. she gave holly one too, one that her father gave her, so my mom had to buy me my own. when i first saw it i thought it was pretty, but not something i would have picked out myself. over the years i have really grown to love this ring. i find myself staring at it sometimes. its really so beautiful and i love it so much. its small and simple and very sparkley. i clean it all the time. i wear it on my ring finger and i know you arent supposed to or whatever, but i dont really care. its looks and fits the best there. i wish holly was home to help me pack and say goodbye to me on monday. i remember when she first went away to college. we both stood at the end of the driveway by the mailbox hugging and crying while mom was waiting in the car. it seems like yesterday i took her to the airport with mom and dad and hugged her and tried so hard not to cry when she was leaving for brazil. but i did. holly is really smart, and funny. shes kind of embaressing to go to the movies with because she laughs so loud and stomps her feet. she loves to sleep in. she plays the piano, and shes allergic to cats- BIG TIME. if she is around a cat, she looks like shes going to drop dead. holly speaks spanish and now portuguese. she says she cant even remember how to say prayers in english. when she writes me letters she always spells things wrong because she gets the two languages confused now. she is very sweet and shy. she loves peanut butter m and m's and pancakes. i love my sister (1 Comment |Comment on this)